Gay and Turning a New Leaf
I’ve been angry and upset for so long. I have harbored and held on to shit for so long because it is affecting my brain chemistry. I am young so I am still learning the true process of forgiveness. I am also still in the job of allowing myself to let go of certain issues that have stayed with me for years. I guess I was traumatized by certain stuff, and I have learned to block it and put the issues down until it arises again. It’s not healthy. I need to deal with it and move forward. Not ghost the situation or run away from it. I also feel like harboring has a huge roll in present day mindset and how one may feel. Even though what you’ve been through doesn’t excuse others to presently treat anyone like shit. But for one’s own health, it’s best to unpack, heal and let go… truly. I find myself being angry or upset about things that I can no longer control. Many examples such as, the urge to contact my ex-lover or the feelings I get when I feel alone or not heard…sometimes even the feelin...