Queer Writers Block

 You ever thought about just moving away, without anyone knowing? You ever thought about just disappearing and giving yourself another chance somewhere else? Your ever saw yourself gaining peace away from people who are closed minded? You ever found yourself seeking something bigger than the environment your culture doesn't want to change. Isolation is the key for me. I don't know about anyone who is reading this, but peace is hard to come by and I know I cant avoid people but I can find peace in solitude and creating my own environment away from those who do not seek what I seek. I am now realizing that co-dependency is my trauma and now I am learning to understand it differently. I see it in everything I do. I see it how I love and how I feel. Thats why people gravitate toward me. And I am going to start doing what my heart desires, I want to socialize with them... I am going to speak to them. I will not let anyone put fear in my heart for loving strong and great people becau...

 There's a lot of ways one can express themselves. It doesn't have to be in a manner thats safe or socially normal. As everyone has their vices and I do not judge. However, I do judge if ones truth is hiding behind a mask and one doesn't express themselves because of the judgements people may think or say. I only judge because I Want better for those and for those to freely say and feel as they want. We as a generation understand that they are trying to censor us knowing that the information that has been provided to us is very much uncontrollable. Have you ever felt like you are over dealing with people and just wanted to pursue yourself and dreams? Even if the money is good, you ever felt like you wanted to leave your job because the people do not align with you and your morals? So I personally am going through this and It is time for me to leave. The therapy agency that I currently work at is not a place I thought it was. The people are horrible people and treat and say ...

The trees shed their leaves. The cicadas shed their skin. Mothers let their children go off to school. People leave jobs when they are ready. Everything and everyone has to learn how to let go. For some it may be natural and for others it is learned. However for me, I struggle. I actually hold on to memories tighter than my own dreams. I makes me sad to write this because it’s true. Whoever is reading this, could you send me a virtual hug. I’m vulnerable right now and i just want you to listen to me. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about how my heart and mind are set up. One of the things that strike me is my inability to let go. I still think about things that make me feel the feelings i felt when they happened. I still get chills about life and love interests that are no longer in my life. I wish i was strong enough to let go and love and live freely, but my willing heart doesn’t allow me. I still feel attached to these people. My mind continues to think about these people. I wish ...