Queer and Having kids

 You ever had someone introduce you to their child and you weren't ready? You ever knew it was time for you to leave and you were still sitting on the bed waiting on god to tell you to get up? However, you sit there because you don't want to look awkward or abruptly leave. Being so nervous because you want to be a good example and be appropriate for the meet and greet. Nobody wants to smell like weed or alcohol meeting the innocence. After you meet the sweet child, you start to question yourself and what you present to those who are blind to the world. The questions that nay come up are, "Are you ready for kids?" "Do you know what true sacrifice it takes to be a parent?" or "If you wanted kids, are you prepared to take care of someone other than yourself?" Being queer black male and desiring kids come with so much background noise and opinions. The fear of having children and them struggling in school with having two loving parents at home that are queer. Simply, children being bullied just because they have two dads or two moms. Nobody wants to put their child through things they went through. But one of the things that are concerning are showing kids the affection of two human beings especially between two same sex parents. As we all know, at a youth we are absorbing what is being shown around them. Children start to record the movements and actions of adults at an early stage. Everyone wants their children to grow up independent and not easily influenced by their environment. Have you ever questioned that showing your kids affection between two same sex individuals that that may be persuaded or influenced into doing exactly what you have shown? Kids should know to not look at those things as something they look forward to. Trauma also plays a role in how we perceive our future. Even as a queer black male, I too struggle with having to change my personality due to the environment I've entered. Ive become a chameleon. However thats not to say that this will happen to our future kids, It's just the trauma that has performed in our lives have created a show of thoughts. There are ways to actually explain love between two same sex couple and those of the opposite sex. Those conversations are so tough yet doable. The proper communication can surely assist in explaining to a child whats socially normal and what's not at the time. When the time comes im sure there will be a coming to terms type of vibe. To all my queer black female or male readers, do you have the same fear about raising kids? Have you ever felt like you weren't good example to children just because of what you've been through? 

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