Queer and Introverted

The feelings of dealing with people and their issues, I find to be not my peragative. people concentrate on the wrong things such as how someone else is feeling or what they are feeling. Understanding that communication is the only way to fix something, but have you ever noticed that the ones asking you are you ok never have a real solution? I mean if you cared god would have provided you with some type of solution or a plan to help the one your asking. However, people still have this urge to not mind their business. Being queer and introvert, it’s hard to want to mingle with others Especially if they are not apart of our community. Being queer is already complex within itself. So to act as if we are even equal or on the same playing field is arbitrary. Being a queer and introverted individual makes people feel a certain way. They have this concept of homosexuals being kind and friendly. There is this concept that we are the happiest people and we like everyone. Wrong! I dislike everyone at my job. I dislike everyone who is not on my competency level. To look for any type fo relationship is one of the most degrading things you can do to yourself. It sends the message that you are shallow. It sends the message that you are green or gullible. I find that when you give people to much, they run with it. Apart of my introverted ways is isolation. Isolation is the true key to self discovery and growth. Being everyones friend or communicating with everyone is not ideal. Liking everyone and trusting everyone is ill for the physical and mental. You preserve yourself by literally preserving yourself. Holding your tong, observing your surroundings, not over extending yourself, giving yourself and other grace: are all the things that will persevere who you are. Sharing to much of your life gives people the opportunity to use it against you. Not everyone has the best intentions when it comes to your heart and thoughts. Not being aware of what's going on around you, can make you loose the vision. Being able to observe and see how people react and move will help you define who they are as a person which in turns protects you. This also will help you conclude whether you should do this person favors or not. Sometimes people take advantage of the quiet one or the one who does his job. I will tell you now that I was that person but now iI don't even give them the chance. Over extending yourself can hurt you more than it hurts them. You can feel drained from performing actions outside of what makes you feel good. Then you are burnt out and angry because you can't perform your task. Understanding your introverted is one thing but understanding grace is another. Even though you may not like to mingle or entertain people, there is still grace that needs to be given. You make mistakes and others make mistakes too. Sometimes only being by yourself you get so caught into thinking that you aren't apart of a machine that works with many parts. Isolation can cause you to literally only see yourself. People are still people unfortunately and if you want the same respect you have to give it. But I dont just give people grace for no reason, only if its warranted. Being a queer introvert to all my readers, how do you protect yourself from others insecurities or wrong doings? How do you take care of yourself in the mist of others bullshit? What are some remedies you use to make yourself more resilient in large crowds or people in your vicinity?

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