Queer and Reminiscing on old relationships

 The urges you get when you want to go back to what makes you feel good. Its the thoughts that run through your head when you are just sitting in your room and you get the sudden chill that runs through your body. The feeling that you want to act on the urge to have the most passionate sex with the person that makes you feel complete mentally and physically. But you either cant get to them right then or you are in a space where you guys aren't where you used to be. The most interesting part about this is that when you receive these urges do you not feel yourself freeze mentally? Can You see yourself performing the actions? Doesn't the thoughts feel real? Do you feel your limbs tingle the same as you would if you were in person? Its such a crappy yet euphoric feeling. The need to be with this person is always temporary. You don't just get the feeling of sex but you also get the feeling of what your old relationship was like. It feels like you are smelling the kitchen at your old elementary school. The aroma hits your nose and your back at the table playing with your best friends apple sauce. Or when a perfume grabs your hand and takes you back to your grandmothers house. Now your holding your grandma's hand across the street, strutting yourself in Walmart. There is so much emotions that are held in nostalgic moments. Sometimes you feel some things and other times you feel everything. Most times, you'll feel just about everything or the part that makes you long for the past. Even the thoughts and feelings may come and go, I don't know what these mean for me or anyone else who has experienced this. Are we getting over it? Is this apart of the healing process? For all my queer and Black reader, what do you think?

xoxoxo