Queer heart waiting for love: part 4

Remember when you would place money in your piggy bank, storing all of your funds. At a youth, you probably would have never thought you would have to break or empty to start over. Starting over and purging allows for more room to grow. When you think about all the people you’ve had sex with. Think about the times you had to break from being in the Streets because you felt tired. The tiredness comes from you taking on all the spirtual energies that come with human to human connection. Some spirits are harder than others. I too am struggling with purging however me and god are really working on that. It’s not an easy journey, especially if you love hard or differently. But it’s also our duty to takw care of ourselves and that includes knowing yourself and your body. Most people don’t realize that there are “bodies haunting you” - yung miami. Many times people wonder why they can‘t move on or find something new because your heart, mind and soul are not ready to recieve the new love thats in your path. God only provides blessings when you have done the work. Also if you look at it this way, you haven’t made space in your garden for your new flowers. You still have this huge tree planted right in the center. You have to make space, so you either up root the true or continue to water it. Moving to a new climate won‘t change the way the seed was planted in your heart.