Queer and having friends pt. 4

You ever felt like your back again and you really want a new set. Just like the nails, You want an entire new set of friends. One can be on a  journey right now and not be happy about the choices you've made with people. You can be friends with people for so long and forget that not everyone is suppose to stick around. The longer you have them around, the more you start to see the impact on your life. Its just so much to handle however anyone going through this know will get to a point in your  life where you are excited about the people you'll meet. However, You may not  be there yet. When you look at your friends, are you satisfied? When you speak to your friends do they make you happy? Most times, I don't even see myself in these people. You ever fet like you just see them as opportunities to grow. Stepping stones. Getting to a point where you don't even see the person is so wild. You just start to pick out the annoying shit they do and say. Even though I'm honestly not the nicest person, you try my best to be as kind as you can be. You just don't see yourself around the people you used. Being apart of the queer community, growing apart is natural. There are so many of us, so there is no need to settle for anyone. No need to make an environment for yourself that doesn't make you happy. You have to be as comfortable with yourself as possible. You have to be willing to go the extra mile for you instead of others. I think I'm sick of talking and explaining shit to people who just aren't on my type of time. As a queer male,  I see myself being in sync with the people I enjoy. In queer groups, I don't want to talk about negative or self sabotaging shit. I want to grow beyond the places we ever thought we would be. I want to be business oriented and like minded people. As a queer community we should no longer want to affiliate with anyone who isn't trying to do what we are trying to achieve. Having equally set goals and being able to educate one another on certain topics. Im finally realizing the power of being on your own and the laws of attraction. The law of attraction is based off of what your present state of mind is in. The law of attraction is what you create. Imagine you being depressed or sad, you are going to attract those type of people. The only way for us to be able to grow as an individual is for us to want more from outside of our circumstances. The law of attraction is also equal to manifestation. You are basically manifesting a better life for yourself. The powers of reserving yourself for the right moment is so unspoken of as well. Reserving yourself goes hand and hand with the law of attraction and manifesting. You are not exposing your life to those who don't and won't make you feel good about yourself or your situation. Sometimes, its best to sit back and take care ion yourself. Many times the people you'd do the most for, won't do the same for you. Thats why its best to grow and see where life takes you. The scary part may be not knowing if you'll recover, but the honest part about is that you are making a true change in your life that will change the direction of how things may go for your future. To my queer community, I wish that we were released from the social limitations that were promoted through capitalism. Because of the years of adversity, we should be more a group than distant. However, America is so shit when it comes to unity. If it doesn't make money, it doesn't make sense. Thats what America Basis its ideas from. Its so sad to see us this way. To all my queer, black and American readers, do you feel like there is a false ideal about how we as a group should grow? Do you feel like there is a true power in reserving yourself for the better life you deserve? 

xoxoxo