Queer and Tired of working for others

 Getting on the bus or train to work with people who aren't present and don't know how to do their job aggravates me. I've been trying my absolute hardest to do what I have to do to make sure I do my part but I personally feel like there comes a point where you are so far gone from helping other people. You become so numb to everyone that you just start to isolate yourself from them. They either don't do their job or want you to make up for their mistakes. I also feel like people start to care because time is being invested. Time is the highest currency. When you waste time,  you end up waisting money. I rather just do my work and stay to myself. I don't think any of these people are present. I get tired of talking orders from the naive. I want to just sleep all day until I feel better. Until Im able to write a masterpiece and finally can chill out. Ive been struggling with leaving my current job. They are not the people who need to be in those positions but thats why I guess im there too. Im not suppose to be in that position and now I feel it. There are things that my heart calls to. I just want to sleep, eat and write. I feel like anyone who has an artistic passion as a queer person doesn't want a 9-5 to make sure they secure themselves. Just rising up our your sleep to perform tasks for someone else is just the most unbearable and boring thing. Especially when your supervisor never is present on anything. Anyone should get away from working someone else/ Its the worst feeling. Showing up for them but they never show up for me. Sometimes as a good person you have to reel back from giving people a problem and just watch how they interact and move. Im not saying quite your Job either. Build a plan and leave. Im not saying to leave unannounced. Submit a 1 - 2 week notice. Im not saying don't fulfill your duties, keep going until your plan is ready. I personally wamyt the freedom that comes with success and power. I wouldn't even use my power, but just my wealth to provide snd travel. To all my queer and black American readers, do you feel like leaving your job/ When you leave do you already have an Jon opportunity? 


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