Queer and Wishing to be somewhere else

 They say buy something nice or take yourself on a date. Travel or do a vacation. That shit is a lie and never works. I don't want to continuously settle for other people telling what I can and cant do. I make sure that I keep myself to myself because of the hidden agenda people may have. What bothers me the most is having to get up and work for people who would NEVER put themselves in your shoes. I am just tired of working for these companies, I'm tired of working in general. I feel like I'm wasting my life with these people. You ever felt like you should be somewhere else with other people? You ever felt like the people around you just don't see the world the way you do? Or you ever just felt like you were the only one with the mission to become something bigger than what they want? I just feel lost especially working and living with inconsiderate people. I also feel like a lot of people I thought to have my back such as family or so called friends don't. Felling violated everytime you want comfort or the feeling that someone cares suck. I hardly believe anybody when they tell me stuff because I know that they don't really truly give a fuck like they say they do. I tried to keep this blog nice and pretty and open minded but today, Thats just not it. Im disgusted with what I have learned in the corperate world. I am disgusted with how people are treated in the corporate world. I want to honestly leave this life behind and just focus on my craft where I am making money and still advancing my skills. I am truly unhappy because of what I desire has yet to manifest. I know being young and they say, "oh you have time." Have you noticed its always the older crowd who still works 9 to 5 saying this. 45 and up need to stop saying that shit and help the youth. Y'all are stunting the youths growth., 

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