Queer and controlling your experience

”Do whats best for you.….” So i will. Ive decided to pursue a journey of self resilence. ive made up my mind aboit living in georgia. I used to have this dream. This dream of saving the world. This dream of starting small and growing big. The dream of buying my hometown and rebuilding. A dream of teaching a nee way of living. However, i have realized thats a dream and thats not real. I have let go Of that dream. its been hard to accept the obvious however thats apart of growth and being a better person. I will Be moving outside of georgia. Hopefully in the next year or 2. I have done all due diligence here. I dont connect with no one here. I feel isolated from family and the only friends i really have will be ok because they encourage me to follow my dreams. ive been setting myself up and doing research and tryong my hardest to find a job. Ive also asked an amazing person for help. Im really focused on school and finding my space. i have understood now that we are in control of our experience and no one can take that away from us. So now i have started the manifestation process. Creating and imagining my environment. I am in NY or LA. Los angeles is also a place i have been inquisitive about. I just want to leave Georgia and everyone here behind. I need something new and im hoping god grants me the opportunity. i just want to be the girl/guy ive always dreamed. I know my life can be beautiful. I have an idea of what that may look like. im now opening my mind tonthe opportunity that may bring me there. For all my queer and black americans reading, when you are in your environments, do you see how they could change? If you recognize this, this should be a sign to find what literally works for you. Or try something new. Even the average billionare must find a new venture. No one or anything stays the same. Im so tunnel vision on everyone. Ive even stopped myself from having opinions or sharing them with others. I just let people think what they think. You cant control others. You can control yourself.

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