Queer and Despising living in my era of life

    When you are classified as a minority, its hard to believe or perceive that anyone truly gives a fuck about you. I now understand my position and how the world works. Everything I am, America goes against. When you are a righteous person, The world doesn't reward good deeds. The world only cares about the dollar amount and what they can promote to make a profit. When I look at myself in the mirror, All I can do is cry. I feel as though I am sequestered. I feel like there will never be true solace for myself. I feel like I'm stuck or I am trapped in a world that doesn't resonate with my traits or inclusivities. I even feel bad for the lady at Jury Duty. I feel as though because of her heritage and lineage, she will never truly live happily. Especially being 54 and going through racial and mysoginy for 54 years. When I look at the 2024 election, It really put in perspective how people in America think. People in America are stuck and its horrible to see. I just am baffled at the thought process of these people. So instead of waiting on my area to change. I've decided to move. I've decided to leave the state of Georgia and move to California or NY. California and NY are more inclusive of minorities. They are also blue states as well. So, In California and New York I would be able to find like minded people, work with my best friend and finally get away from all of this bullshit. I plan to save all my money and just move. I don't plan on saying my goodbyes. I just plan on ghosting everyone. I believe that I am very disappointed and numb. After I make the moves to move to those states, I'm sure my next venture will be to move over seas. After I move overseas, I plan to never return. I actually planned to make a difference in my home town but god showed me yesterday that America and Americans would never be grateful for change. They like to make everything uncomfortable for everyone. The system is crooked and I am speaking out against the Crooked goverment and the people who are in full support of the crooked government. I have truly given up. I will never vote again. I will never put myself in a space where my voice isn't heard anymore. Its embarrassing to see how my people and other demographics perceive their future and the youth. All I Hear is "this new generation doesn't work." This new Generation doesn't want change. However what bothers me is the way everyone who is seasoned continuously talk down on the youth but you didn't change shit for us sop what're we suppose to do? What would y'all like for us to do? Since y'all are so fuckin right? Speak up ?! because I haven't seen a Malcom x or a Martin Luther king, All I have been seeing is comfortable lazy ass seasoned people who don't understand their role because y'all are so stuck on how you lived your life. You have to make a change in your present life so that it can make a difference in your future. I have completely been turned off from who I thought was my friend, my family and any other individual who is of age. I also am turned off by my people and communities. I just have to ,are a way on my own and for myself. I have to create an Avenue with my writing and novels so that I can pave the way for change. I also know that It is rare to find my people. I know that its is reality that I will never truly meet them because of how rare we are . But I hope to make a difference in the smallest way possible. But I will not stay in America too make the difference. Yall have won and y'all can keep it. From My boss to my family. From my associates to the everyday people. Yall got it. Have fun!

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