Queer and. Facing The Devil

    I just wanted to let everyone know that I am sorry for being so absent. I have been growing emotionally. I have been doing the work to retract from people in general. Something inside of me is changing once again. Everyone and anyone knows me and They know I love change especially eternal growth. I truly Thank god for this opportunity to understand where I am suppose to be. However, That leads me into my topic of the day, "Queer and Facing the Devil". Battling your own demons are like the toughest part about life. These demons come in spirit and physical form. Whether your demon is simply lighting a cigarette to killing people without remorse, It's all equally the same. One of the most common battles of spiritual warfare is controlling ones emotions at work, especially when one is emotionally intelligent. People try to make one feel a way and back track and act as if they have done nothing. You ever heard the phrase throwing rocks with your hands behind your back. That's the experience. It's like ones boss or supervisors have this higher mentality over others when they should be trying to connect. Connect is not befriending. That's the reason why most people lack the understanding of the youth. They lack that true emotional authenticity. The world has changed. However, I personally have started to not to respond or over extend myself. I just do as I am told and Respond with the most reasonable response. I don't feed monsters or horrible people. I also don't provide mirrors for those who are monsters or demons. I allow god to show who they are in the mist of others. Thats their mirror. Its been hard to allow someone who shits, eats, and sleeps as I do to say and do what they want to others. People like that think they deserve conversation and respect? Or they think that what they do isn't watched or warranted. If I don't like you as a person, I am not over stepping anymore to try to make anything work. I have learned to take everything as it is. I have learned to see the light or the end goal for myself. I don't allow anyone or anything to take me out of character anymore. This comes with change. Im so used to spazzing on everyone who does me wrong or makes me feel some way. Now Im just providing everything that they are asking of. I am making the moves to be more attentive to myself and also learning to not take everything to heart. I know a lot of these people are used to people feeding them. You have to starve them until you serve that last meal. I can not stress enough how this has worked for me. But I want you to know this, that the demons that you are facing are all lessons. These lessons are valuable because they help transition you into your new phase in life. I won't take this opportunity to grow fro granted because god knows what I need to survive. For those who are experiencing your demons, how are you handling them? What are you doing to face them? 

xoxoxoxo

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