Reserving Myself for the Best to Come

The most extreme thing I have done for myself is to be quiet you all. I am so used to spreading my messages or myself thin to people who are just looking to have their battery recharged. People who don't know their power or their strength are not aware of emotional batteries or social batteries. They don't understand that it takes a strong person to truly want to be around other people who DO NOT resonate with them. As children or teens, it was easier because you are placed in forced environments. However, as one grows into adult hood, a lot of the decisions and problem solving tactics grow us out of those forced environments. We then become our own maker of life. The true controller of our board game called life. So having a fully charged battery to take on the world really means a lot. The only way anyone can truly reserve themselves for the best is to charge those batteries. Some people stay to themselves, others get pedicures. I choose to stay quiet 24/7 and only speak when necessary. I don't go out my way to be in people faces anymore. I used to but I just leave people where they are at. I don't boost their ego, I don't give them energy. I let them hurt themselves. Its already hard enough trying to carry oneself by oneself and healing onself. I personally don't have all the energy to give from my battery pack to emotionally support those who would never do the same for me. I made mistakes. I made a mistake befriending people at work. I made a mistake thinking that people actually understood who I was. I made a mistake giving myself away to people who don't have any the best intentions for me. The power of keeping oneself to themselves is so extreme. Its almost kind of scary. I have been fake interacting for so long, its almost like my body is accustomed to being in peoples faces or speaking about my own personal topics....its to much especially at a 9-5. All in all, I have spoken and probaly written about this several times. However, It never gets old because this is how we build our charcater, this is how a person naturally heals, and this is the only way a individual can forsee the other side of their issues. I remember when I was sleeping on peoples couch and floor. I remember when all of that was happening around me, the people who I thought would be there for me in the beginning were never truly there. I tried to keep them around for the benefit of good sake but I had to put them on Thin Ice to protect my sanity and self. The people who were not and are not for me give me stress and anxiety. The way you can measure a person and see if they are for you is through their tone, actions, mannerisms, and intention. I see through it all here and I am glad to recognize who and what are for me now. I can recognize the spirits from a mile away and there is so much more to learn how to pick these people out. You have to recognize your vampires. They may not be vampires to Sally, but because you have something they need... they will try to suck the life out of you. for all the people who are reading this, what are some of the things that you reserve to keep yourself safe?


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