Queer Writers Block

Trust is a hard thing to come by. Trusting someone is even Harder when you‘ve protected yourself for soooooo long. Feelings Such as anxiety or fear graces your chest. Your heart begins to unfold causing your body temperature to rise. All because you’ve intrusted something or Someone to hold your secrets or Simply something dear to your heart. You would think it’ll be easier to share with friends, but it’s easier to share with people you don’t know. It’s also better to recieve voices Of reason from others rather than those who hold your emotions in their hands to protect you from what they make think may trigger you. Being aware that in adulthood “friends” or “Best friends” become obsolete due to extremeties life imbues on you. you have to realize that the definition Of trust changes over the course of your life, and those who you thought you could trust, are no longer trust worthy. As an adult, god opens your eyes and Begins to reveal details about individuals you’d never thought would...

Waiting on something to find you, seems like the best option at this point. Log off all of those dating apps. Cancel all those dating subscriptions. Delete every dating profile. Its nothing like living your real life and actually enjoyinv live music or a park. Meeting that special someone in person is way better than over an app that holds anxiety. It’s like speed dating With bad intentions. Genuinly getting to know one another's good and bad flaws instead of dating to get to the one stop shop, sex. Since theres been a rise in hyper sexuality and a low in actual dating and communciation. Peoples intentions are not as they use to be. Lies are more previlant than before and truths are used to hurt instead of helping. In the rainbow community, we tend to move fast. We base our relationships off others and what they want us to be. When in reality, we need to define our own roles as 2 men in a relationship. We need to build our own formula. You have to be as unique as god made us as ind...

He was smart, He was witty, and he was right for you. He showed you care like no one else, but because you weren‘t present enough you couldn‘t love him like he loved you. He knew that. Thats why he‘s with someone else and not With you. You are delusional to think  actually think he was going to wait for you to acknowledge your wrongs. And it’s ok that you are wrong, you have to forgive yourself for making that mistake. It’s a mistake. Everyone makes mistakes. But everyone doesnt make your mistake. I know it hurts to even realize these things. Seeing things for what they are instead of what story you want to believe. it’s also a beautiful thing because you are actually moving on. Even though that person has probably moved on, you can finally see yourself somewhere else. You can feel free from the false pain youve self inflicted. These are the decisions that people make in general. You never know until someone tells you or you go through life watching those signs. You will have it agai...

you ever just felt like in a situation you could have done something differently. You ever sat in bed and just went over detail after detail. Have You ever repeated the same story over and over looking for the true answer? Pondering other peoples minds because you believe that gods creations will hopefully send you a message. Looking for the answer is what we as a human Race are supoose to do. The answers are both inside of us and whats created inside of us are made up of the same things on the outside of us. finding out in your journey of healing that, you were the cause of mischeif. you being delusional, indecisive, or anything that caused the rift. taking in account can shift the atmosphere for you. It’s like the key to freedom. It’s such a huge part of shaping your friend ecosystem. It’s like the meteroite and the dinosaurs. It Completely changes history for you. Instead of blaming the outside forces, many situations Involve 2 people making decisions and speaking on how they pervi...

Walking around with so many pains. it shapes the way your percieve the world. Harboring the issues that dont have any attachment to your true identity. If your asking if this is mental health, its the beginning to a long road. A road you paved because you couldn‘t face those demons. So now your having to walk this road with no street lights, no true support system to help you in a time of need. It’s like making the bed.you have to sleep in it too. Things will only become different when you start to make the changes to your heart. Finding resources to help you heal. Don‘t sacrifice anything for an object or human. You are perfect and lost like everyone else. And I honestly, don’t even know what Im doing. Going through life still learning what and what not to take to heart. Learning to control your emotions is a super power of its own. Being able to understand why you feel the way you do is one of the best accomplishments in the world. Sometimes even finding peace with yourself is all yo...

The truth hurts. The truth feels like cuts at your wrist. But even when the truth hurts, the pain turns into something beautiful. The cuts turn into scars, these scars become the violins of your life. Being Able to receive and use the truth and actually make a change is one of the most beautiful life experience a human can engage in. Even when you sit down with a group of friends, some expect them to side with them. Others expect there friends to tell the truth. Walking into these interventions aren't easy either. Dispelling your heart while they cover it with the most healthy shade possible. It’s ok to be hurt. It’s ok to go through things you don‘t Understand. It’s ok to hear the truth even when you want the lies. Longing for the lies is the most dangeorus thing a person could do to themselves. Even lying to yourself. Lying to yourself is like self inflicting cuts. It’s like putting a gun to your own head. It’s social suicide. Strive for your truth. Strive to tackle the things yo...

Imagine being at a party. You were invited by your fellow associates. Out of all the fun they are having, all you can think about is seeking a man in a crowd full of opportunities. Being a queer  guy at the party always trying to find my party favor is very unhealthy. The unhealthy practice of seeking love can become habitual. Instead of enjoying  time & living in the moment, one may find themselves stuck measuring dicks through pants or sizing someone’s ego based off their outer apperance. Some use empathy to persuade themselves of finding one person in a room who would be quote on quote, The one. Truthfully, If I could give a piece of advice to anyone, it would be to build a Plan and stay home. Don‘t have sex or seek love from people who never loved you in the beginning. The habitual actions stem from trapped trauma. This trauma could possibly stem from earlier identity.  However, in your present age, don‘t Blame anyone anymore because you want to for...

I’m 26 and I live in Atlanta right now. I ride public trans to work. Work takes up 14 hrs of my day. So many thoughts run through my head while the hours pass by. One of the most irritating yet understandable thought that has a contonius reassurance in my head, is my definition of love and what gay love means to me. I was planted by a village of gardeners. They showed me how im supoose to be treated by fertilizing and watering my mind. They empowered me by providing me sunlight when I needed it. I never had to question whether someone genuinly loved me. The feelings of this type of love is so strong, it speaks with No words. You can read it by the light that surronds the body. Even though I was planted to be fruitful, even the villagers have to take time to themselves. They can not always protect me from outside forces. Intruders invaded my growth by taking unripe fruit, slowly breaking down my the heart and spirit. It shifted my perception. I’ll never forget when I started to wilt. My...