Queer Writers Block

       It so hard dealing with people who are negative and horrible humans. It's even worse when you have to work for someone who is the source of the lame and lazy actions carried out by the workers around you. They love to blame the new people or the youth for their issues. The problem isn't the workers the problem is the source, the CEO. It all starts from the beginning. The affect of information and how things are ran trickle down to those who have authority over those who seek them for support. For all the CEO's who are black or gay Americans, You need to read this. If you are treating your staff horrible because you are stressed you are a horrible person and I wouldn't want to work for you or your company either. The fact that you cant seperate your personal life from work is so sick and unwise. You are not a good example for those to come. Everyone is stressed. Everyone has shit going on. You are not important just because you have shit to do. Working is suppo...

”Do whats best for you.….” So i will. Ive decided to pursue a journey of self resilence. ive made up my mind aboit living in georgia. I used to have this dream. This dream of saving the world. This dream of starting small and growing big. The dream of buying my hometown and rebuilding. A dream of teaching a nee way of living. However, i have realized thats a dream and thats not real. I have let go Of that dream. its been hard to accept the obvious however thats apart of growth and being a better person. I will Be moving outside of georgia. Hopefully in the next year or 2. I have done all due diligence here. I dont connect with no one here. I feel isolated from family and the only friends i really have will be ok because they encourage me to follow my dreams. ive been setting myself up and doing research and tryong my hardest to find a job. Ive also asked an amazing person for help. Im really focused on school and finding my space. i have understood now that we are in control of our exp...

       Idk why I even bothered. I should have stayed home. This is something that my people will never come out of or win The judicial system doesn't work in our favor. I will not be mean but I will isolate myself because the older people think they know everything. I had to assist a jury for helping a company or black American woman. I really just felt for the black American woman because she just wants to be happy and live comfortably. That company will get what they desire regardless. I think the other jurors failed to realize that. I felt as though she was not recognized for her true feelings about what had happened to her. I also know that any race outside of a black American get treated disrespectfully. I wish that I had nothing to do with that case as it just wasn't fair in my eyes. This judicial system is not for us. I am so sorry to Mrs. Pamela Stuart. She did not deserve to go through that with what the company reliable put her through. I do believe that sh...

     When you are classified as a minority, its hard to believe or perceive that anyone truly gives a fuck about you. I now understand my position and how the world works. Everything I am, America goes against. When you are a righteous person, The world doesn't reward good deeds. The world only cares about the dollar amount and what they can promote to make a profit. When I look at myself in the mirror, All I can do is cry. I feel as though I am sequestered. I feel like there will never be true solace for myself. I feel like I'm stuck or I am trapped in a world that doesn't resonate with my traits or inclusivities. I even feel bad for the lady at Jury Duty. I feel as though because of her heritage and lineage, she will never truly live happily. Especially being 54 and going through racial and mysoginy for 54 years. When I look at the 2024 election, It really put in perspective how people in America think. People in America are stuck and its horrible to see. I just am baff...

voting is not for my people. America Is not for my people. America dispoints me everytime. People dosappoint me everytime. I really just want life to be more hnderstanding and accepting but the system was created by those who are older than me and im just miserable. I dont even vote because i truly know my vote doesnt matter in general. And youd be stupid to believe it does. They never wanted us (black americans) to be apart of their scam or scandal. so im 26 and now realizing I dont fit anywhere. People of age don’t talk positive about the youth. people my age don’t want to be better than what has been given to us. It’s all bullshit. I do feel sequestered (learned this new word in jury duty). I also feel like im not Supported how i should be. I am just over it. However, if you voted im proud of you. If you didn‘t vote im proud of you as well. However, if you think that things will change with a simple vote, you are sadly mistaken. And i encourage Everyone to just be better…do you feel...

I am so disappointed in myself. I just got scammed out of some money that I thought would change my life. I whopping to recieve a car today so that I can fullfill my dreams. I ended up getting scammed by a lady. Im so hurt. So now Im just over being here in general. My life has been in shambles since I have lived here. Im jjst ready for the really good part where I have worked hard to make a difference in my owm life. my feelings are hurt and they are warranted. but this post is to protect others and to of course express myself to those who can understand. Don’t send deposits, Don’t send anything. Only send money if you have seen the car or if you have rode in the vehicle. This kind of makes me sad in a way. I was hopinb and praying to be able to supprt myself and have somethinv of my own. But im obviously not getting that. So yeah. Instead of crying about it. I bought a pair of shoes. im just so tired of the bullshit. But it’s all good. Just for those who are queer Black americans, be...

I feel so bad right now. I feel as though I am aware ofnwhat my duty is now. You ever was around your mom or your family and hated that they have to work? I dont know if thats specifically for those who have a business owner mindset. However, just realizing that you don’want your immediate family to work any 9-5‘s literally makes me wonder as to what i can do do better to take them out ot these positions. It’s almost embarassing to see people nag and tall to them about things at their age. My goal Is not to see my mother work for the rest of her life. My goal is not ro see my siblings work after they graduate. I just really want my family to be black excellence. I want to continue the legacy of my grandfather. Even though i am not of the Trent seed, I truly feel in my heart that i am here to create a legacy and path that adheres to both my fathers side and my mothers side. I just want better and I have to be bigger than my traumas. I am trying my best to grow over those issues or to un...

     I just wanted to let everyone know that I am sorry for being so absent. I have been growing emotionally. I have been doing the work to retract from people in general. Something inside of me is changing once again. Everyone and anyone knows me and They know I love change especially eternal growth. I truly Thank god for this opportunity to understand where I am suppose to be. However, That leads me into my topic of the day, "Queer and Facing the Devil". Battling your own demons are like the toughest part about life. These demons come in spirit and physical form. Whether your demon is simply lighting a cigarette to killing people without remorse, It's all equally the same. One of the most common battles of spiritual warfare is controlling ones emotions at work, especially when one is emotionally intelligent. People try to make one feel a way and back track and act as if they have done nothing. You ever heard the phrase throwing rocks with your hands behind your back. Th...